Nanny

By: The_Frozin_One Mood: DEF Down (fragile) Date: 10/08/2007 07:16:37 Music: None

Over the weekend, my Grandmother passed away. She has been fighting with a bad heart, and lately it was too much for her. My brothers and I were amazed at how strong she has been. She has been in the hospital before due to her heart, and has had a pacemaker installed. But she came back and was doing well for a number of years. However, after her last hospital stay, she declined rapidly.

What I remember most about Nanny was her being the perfect Grandmother. When I was younger, I used to spend the night over her house on weekends. She would make fresh biscuits and gravy in the morning and take me to the store to get a toy. She was always interested in what I was involved in. From super hero action figures, to my college courses, she always showed interest and was always proud of me. When I got married, she traveled 8+ hours to my wedding in Ohio. During the time, I was so wrapped up in the event, I didn’t realize the significance her attendance was. How difficult it must have been for her to make the drive with my parents. I told her thank you and that she didn’t have to go all that way. She shook it off and told me she wouldn’t have missed it for the world.

What I’ll miss most about her will be her presence during the holidays. It just won’t be the same without her. Over the years, I have only seen her during the holidays; which I feel guilty for. I should have taken more time to visit. I know losing her will greatly affect the family. Instead of focusing on the loss, I hope we share our memories of Nanny and keep her alive in our memories and her spirit in our hearts. I see a bit of Nanny in my mom and my aunts. I’m hoping they realize that she still lives through them and that they remember that the most for the family.

Visitations are today and the funeral will be tomorrow. Mom has asked me to be a pallbearer, and I accepted. I’m hoping I remain strong for my mom and family, but I’m afraid of how I’ll feel once I see everyone so upset. I plan on driving to Gallatin today before visitation hours to keep my Mom company. I think if I help Mom and the rest of my family focus more on her life, rather than her death, it may help ease the pain. I know it will be tough, but I am going to try.